no no. this headline is not confusing at all. well..yeah it is. but let me get into the details behind this little, weird sentence.
acting appropriate to the date on your passport, aka your age, can be a tricky thing to do. growing up we're all fascinated by the older kids and just can't wait until we count as a 'grown up' or are at least old enough to make more independent decisions..well. we never actually listened to those teenagers or adults that we admired with envy..and for sure did not believe them when they told us that they would swap with us in a heartbeat.
well.let's just put it that way. the shit that's waiting on the other side of the rocky road to adluthood is most definitely not what anyone dreamed of as a careless child haha..but then again i don't mean that your childhood needs to be the best years of your life. that's sort of the dilemma i want to adress today.
if only i could underline enough how important it is to use the moment right here and now in your hand. don't stress about the what-if-s. let go of what you can't change. for today is the biggest gift you will ever be given. so just embrace the stage you're in, in this very moment. altough society can make you feel pressured in certain ways as in how to dress, talk, eat, consume and most sadly..think, try to free yourself from those harmful restrictions and cut off those boundries. act however the heck you want to act like. just don't feel pressuered by any means to live your life any different from what you truly would love to do.
it is way too late at night right now and i most definitely should recharge for a gorgeous day ahead..but this age-defining-thing keeps me wide awake.
since i am travelling right now i meet new people each day. some of them stick around and will be mentioned in a few years time when i'll tell someone about my adventures abroad. some leave right after exchanging our names. and that's cool with me.
daily i chat to someone i don't know and eventually they ask about my age. 'oh. i am eighteen' 'no! are you kidding me? now i see you differently!' ok.maybe that's not the exact answer i get..but the content of it aplies to most of the replies. why does it matter that i have been on this earth for 'only' eighteen years? it shouldn't. i might have filled my eighteen years with more things than some fill fifty with. why would you treat me any different now then a minute ago?
i'm not to sure if there even is a definite conclusion to my rambles today. there is an encouragement though. don't be defined by a number. in fact any number. and don't look back envious on your chldhood or be impatient until your older..just decide to be happy NOW and not if ______ happens.
xxxx from a sleepy and slightly overthinking juli
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